Yesterday I can't sleep after what we've discuss I was suppose to sleep but while I was about to sleep, my phone rang and we suddenly talked about us.I had a hard time sleeping throughout.I did reflected on what I've done. I just want you to know that I'm sorry.But I hope you'll be able to give me the time to make it up for you.You said that I treated my friends much beter than I do..Well, I wonder what on earth is going on.My mum and you think that I treated you unfairly.I believe there's still a chance for me to make up whatever I 've done. I'm not compromising.I just want to let you know that I will do whatever I can before everything is gone.But don't expect so much from me as no one is perfect I myself will make mistake.I'm already so tired, about other stuffs... do you know how is it like for me ...how it feels? sometimes is really painful.as you never know I ever had a wound that will never seems to heal deep in my heart.I don't wish to have another scar, wound. But now, that wound of mine is gone.I want to be the happy,cheerful, bubbly girl people have known.I just hope this thing don't happen too often.. Argh...... my legs, back and my stomach hurts.I can't help it...I can't really run, laugh too much etc etc...is painful.after my TKD training yesterday.what to do? no pain no gain.Is worth it.I heard that everyone in TKD (those in white belt) passed their grading and will be promoted to the next rank/ level which is yellow tip.actually IF you are capable and able to do better you'll get a double promotion and your rank will be yellow belt.Haiz....I'm not good enough.After my yellow tip is yellow belt then green tip, green belt..........on and on and on and on then to your highest rank which is black belt..lolx.I'm dreaming of getting a black belt in future if possible.Gotta believe in myself and dreams.Yeah another few more days is the month of may I'm 16 going on 17 on 11th May.heex.I'm waiting for that time to come.Today there wasn't any afternoon lesson we finished at 1200-1230hrs.Then I went to muIti Media lab with Su Yu and Xin Xin to used the computers.Yeah, I went home.Then went to meet sister at tampines interchange as we'll be going out with Eddie, Xin Xin, iced man and Sam.Actually sister and I don't wanna go as iced man will be joining us..He's such a pain in the neck and ass...zzzz.but because of Eddie, we gave him face.Eddie is my TKD senior and our good friend.haiz...iced man..he's there.....really can feel bored and a little vexed by him...What to do? compare to him and my darling.Obviously my darling is better.heex...We played pool and some arcade games.Had a great time, we even took pictures for the day..
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!I WANT
More Money change my hair colour
Have a height of AT LEAST 165 and above
Keep my hair much longer like last time
GO korea/taiwan/europe/USA
Maybe get new MP3 player .Wang zi bian qing wa Idol drama VCD
Get TKD black belt New shoes
get much darker
have a good future Adidas Windbreaker Get a job
BUy another month supply of coloured contact lense
A hanbok(korean costume)& yukata(kimono)
buy flower power new tops have a wonderful 18th birthday
get into poly
