Tuesday, January 31, 2006
yesterday is the second day of CNY...HAHA...haiz...time flies.. I really had a great time playing with my video cam since chinese new year's eve.. tlaking back bout last saturday I was abit no mood to celebrate as someone lah, make me kinda fucked up at that time haiz.. some more he dare to put words in my mouth saying that I like Wei X.. Absolute rubbish lah.. but I no mood to angry lah, cos I had a bad stomach pain since that morning till yesterday... and also wanna be happy on CNY.. don't like to scold people some more..after new year, I a year older liao.. angry some more I old faster
OK lah. I was busy being a big director doing filming, and other stuffs with my videocam..yeah, then playback what I've recorded/ then everyone was busy laughing...
bout today, me went to my grandmother's place again... haha.. but too bad today no hongbao to take.. yesterday and xhinese new year's ever I got hongbao altogether got 210..haha.. still not enough leh,.. cos, some wanna buy stuffs some wanna keep in bank de.... Then went to river hongbao at cityhall with my mum..she's my director and camera crew.. and I kinda did some hosting.. lolx.. I talked like kinda nervous loh...haiyo.. hate screwing up man.. after filming I went back to my grand mother's place and played the video.. letting my relatives watch... haha.. Watched finished le, I was looking at some VCDS which belongs t my uncle.. then I came across this VCD called Anaconda.. I last time wanted to watch that movie in theatres then didn't got the chance to watch.. so end up, I watched that movie on VCD.. WOW.. THE SHOW IS REAL NICE..
The movie talks about, a particular team were at the jungle, ..hmm..not really a jungle is a place called the amazon river which is located at south america. didn't expected was there were mostly all kinds of snakes.. besides snakes, there were other animals. The team stayed on a old ship, and there is this particular guy who is a so call villager in this amazon river. Anaconda is indeed a giant snake where the people worship to.. This giant snake is extremely big, long and it can even eat big animals and humans.. is nice, exciting, scary.. Hmm.. I wonder if there such a giant snake in real life.. hmm.. if i'm not wrong other country has it.. some says, that giant snake is made up by using computer..haha.. hmm.. interesting moive, there were not only one giant snake, instead there were 2.. The giant snake had already eaten a few people from the team.
what i realised is the whole movie is filled with lots of snakes.. eek... this anaconda can live on land and water, it grabs the prey and holds them real tightly till their bones break. lastly, it'll open its mouth, and begin to eat the mouthful of its prey, and somehow takes a long time to digest due to its length, size of its mouth..
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Friday, January 27, 2006
hmm....haha got lotsa things to say.. heex.. ya, starting from wednesday, I went to see a doctor due to my eye infection even asked the doctor about homone injections haha.. but homone jabs only specially recommended for kids below 10 years old. then I went home, sleep, watch tv then get ready to go out and meet my dear.. we went to east coast.. heex. then brought him to that place where qing tian, me suyu, xin xin used to hang out that so called jetty.. ya, stayed there till 2130hrs...
then yesterday, wei x came to my house to do treatment... he came round 2200hrs.. glad he is satisfied with his hair now.. ya, before he came to my place, he asked me to chatted with him.. haha.. then he came to my place liao we talked alot .. haiz.. wei x wei x, my special friend and soulmate always.. sometimes, really think back about how he sorta stepped into my life...
today, after work went to bedok to meet my mum as she wanted to buy flowers before buying flowers went to eat, then talked alot of stuffs.. then I finally say my secrets out ... like how many ex I have etc etc.. I told her about me and Nivel's stuffs. at first she keep on ask then after that, I slowly told her... heng ah.. she didn't say anything sso mean or what.. I'm already 18 she also cannot scold or beat me wad... ya, at least feel much more relieved.. better to say out rather than she find out herself...
haiyo, that day my dear say he lose his ring.. haiz... I never blamed him for that lah.. really... anyway, I also never wear my ring le.. at first I was like what?? ha, gone liao ar.... like that only... I never make noise or got angry about it.. I hope he doesn't blame himself bout it till now.. dear, anything goes wrong, as long as you honest can le.. ya... always loving you no matter what...
Hurray! another 2 more days to chinese new year.. can't wait.. I bought my high heel plattforms le.. before buying, I tried it on, then i ''parade'' around the departmental store as if doing cat
walk or auditioning for America's next top model ...lolx..heex.... After CNY me going to x-ray for my teeth cos I going to wear braces le.. then mum say she will help me asked chinese sinseh about accupunture to see whether I can grow tall anot..cos, she said her friend slim down due to accupunture.. haiya, slim down and gain height is a different thing lah.. hmmm... wanna wish everyone a happy new eyar.. may you people get more hongbao this year too.. and also wanna faster go back to school....
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Friday, January 20, 2006
rewind back.. hmm.. wednesday was me and him 2nd month anniversary liao.. too bad.. didn't get for each other anything.. aiya.. doesn't matter whether have presents anot.. heex.. yeah, we went to watched a movie.. watched The Dark. then after that he pulled me go take neoprint.. haha to bad can't get to see it now cos, I trying to scan them... After spending time with each other, I went to macpherson to meet yun mama, long papa, eddie and the others as we are celebrating wei x's birthday.. wei x treated us.. haiz.. so bored short of ling, xin xin,carol, su yu, charlene, kelvin... wow I got home bout 11 something
yesterday, ling came to rebond her hair.. sorry ling, cos i accidentally make you say ouch.. wah lau her inner hair damn short very hard to do sia.. but glad she like it.. hehe... hmm.. another 9 more days to chinese new year.. and I'm really glad thati really made it through andhang on to this r/s and gain back my confidence le bah, I hope this will be my lst r/s for my teenhood.. just hoping this will last.. I wanna prove to myself and to my ex that I can make it.. and without him around I'm not a useless person..
what to say now?? hmm.. I gotta know of this couple named alan and shu hui( they are nivel's friends) really envy them.. they like so perfect, never quarrel at all like that.. so en ai, they next month one year already wor... hmm.. how I wished I can be like alan and shu hui.. I really pei fu shu hui, she's a bei ai de nu ren with a good bf by her side. they from the same polytechnic,same age... not say I not satisfied with what I have.. but shu hui told me that a r/s is not perfect.. ya quite true from my point of view, no one and nothing is perfect on earth...
anyway, just wanna tell my dear that once he read this he won't get mad or what... I just wanna say, I'm glad that I gained back my confidence.. though he wasn't the one who helped me forget my ex.. but he helped me to forget my past.. he already stepped into my heart for a long long time liao wor..I never ever treated him as a substitue..
yaya, ok lah,.. looking forwrd to chinese new year man.. reallly hope I can get more hongbao this year, was thinking of opening my house to people who wanna come, take hongbao then pai pai pi ku zou ren..hoho.. i'll so the same thing too...
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Sunday, January 15, 2006
haha time to update.. yaya, wednesday,11th jan is my grad ceremony.. hex, me and ling really like twins cos from top to bottom we are wearing the same thing.. haha.. then friday suppose to be night cycling with xinxin's church youth group in the end the envent was postponed to 10th march haiz.. so boring so I went out with her and qing tian, we walked from the esplandae to boat quay then from boat quay back to the esplanade and took a train home..
yesterday, went to chinese sinseh at PS my aunt and cousin took me there... my leg pain happen after my grading the sinseh say i got ligament tear then he have to bandage my leg and have to take medicine,... cannot move about alot then at night, went to chinatown..wah.. at first damn stress loh my mum keep on bug me asked whether got any clothing i like anot.. went to a few shops and couldn't find a single piece at last still got find lah..haiz.. wah lau chinatown damn crowded then got one shop I really buay song with one uncle, my aunt and mum asked the person whether got my cousin sized foor one paritcular vietnamese costume they say don't have.... then just wanna take a look and see can fit my cousin anot..the uncle damn lazy say wait must fold back if we don't buy then my mum say she will help him fold back wah at that time i really du lan, I thought of wanna wreck his shop and say like that might as well don't make business fold back the clothes will die is it?? his other helper also got fold back the clothes and keep into the plastic bag what... realy loh..wanna find his trouble leh.. but cannot lah, i pai ka...
then after shopping at chinatown my mum and I took the train back.. wah lau when reached tampines right, I was about to tAP my EZ-link card got one stupid indian guy just jumped my queue..nnb, bully pai ka.. haiz... then I told my mum bout this incident she asked me whther I got scold that guy anot I say don't have lah.. wait people think this pai ka is mad one..
wah being a pia ka got advantages and disadvantages
advantages: being treated like an empress, don't need to do work( example; housework)
disadvantages: get bullied, but too bad cannot fight back lah
then cannot bath so many times a day, the bandage part cannot touch water
argh.... my mum say my leg caused by my TKD if like that hor, must give up my hip hop, yoga, tkd, pilates liao lah.. i don't want that to happen.. i wanna complete my tkd.
wah lau next few days must bath once a day i buay tahan ar.. cos, ogf my bandage ma, must put plastic bag.. i at least bath 3-4 times a day de leh.. haiz... by wednesday then can removed my bandage.. sian tomorrow can't work.. must rot at home liao. if anyone of you damn free wanna find me pls give me a call first, but too bad can;t ocme out with you guys..
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Monday, January 09, 2006
yesterday was my grading.. yeah, bout that matter is done already.. ya, thanks ling and suyu for being there for me.. today got a shocked when I go and see his blog and quite surprised to see suyu tagged his tag board... haiyo....
after grading we 2 were much better with each other.. at that time after grading I went to eat with debbie, nick , rebecca and him.. ya, then it was still raining loh.. haiyo.. then while walking down the stairs, he slipped and fell and hurted his bums bah.. gosh.. my shoulder damn pian at that time, cos when he fell right, his hand pressed on my shoulder real hard.. ouch!!!! but now ok le lah..
then after that, had our lunch, then we like nothing to talk end up I say I wanna go for a walk.. then nick and rebecca accompanied me walked around toa pyoh central.. then went to the library.. kept on thinking what went wrong between us then I ran to the loo and locked myself up in the cubicle and cried.. was really surprised that rebecca came into the loo then she asked me to open and let her in... she down there comforted me... then nick say wanna treat me eat something.. but don't want lah.. my mind kep on wondering around and then feel like wanna cry again like that..
then went back to the library... he asked me to followed him to one part of the library and wanted to talked to me...then he talked and talked and talked. I down there speechless... then I just walked away. then he asked me not to go.. I don't care but I still walked off... I was walking off to the loo.. came back from the loo, i wnet back to that corner where he was there, at first, I hid the other side then I peeped and saw him on the phone talking to his friend.. then the thing I can't stand guy crying.. wah lau, he cried sia.. aiyoh, don't know what to do whether to hug him or slaped him and say you kaobei, kaobu what?? but I didn't do anything.. then he typed on his phone asking me this question :'' do you still want this r/s?" then I used my HP and typed back.. then after that, he asked me where is the loo, i pointed to him the directon then he asked me to accompany him.. so i did.... while waiting, my stomach suddenly very pain don't know why
haiz.. ok bout today, went out with ling and c arol as ling wanted to buy blazer for the graduation ceremony..bought her blazer, we went to long john and makan then carol went off liao left me and ling, we went to watch movie titled wallace and gromit... oh ya, die very headache don't know what to wear.friends help me vote ok.. there are a few choices here
style 1
style2
style 3
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Saturday, January 07, 2006
haiz.. bout today kinda fed up with my dear loh.. first he tag my board then complaint bout me luckily Ling told him off.. good loh.. complaint complaint complaint.. only know how to complaint to your girl's friends.. think people will side you this outsider is it?? then I complaint to nick, debbie and marcus want anot.. You find my ma fan.. I find back loh.. you this kind of male chauvinist( da nan ren zu yi).. argh.. so fucked up man.. come on this year 19 liao loh.. still cannot think act like secondary one kid haven't reach puberty like that.. compaint here and there so childish.. I think is true leh asian guys are not independent than ang moh guys.. in my life my previous boyfriends won't anyhow tell people bout me loh... chinese got one saying dong xi ke yi luan chi hua bu neng luan jiang.. watch what you say.. got nothing better to say just shut your fucking mouth loh.....
want to talk bad bout me right?? just tell me in the face no need to talk behind my back you jerk, idoit, backstabber...mei jia jiao.. i wonder what you learnt all this while during your schooling for the past 10 years plus... even you get a PHD ar.. then your attitude sucks no point lah.. your PHD is call Permanent Head Damage ar...
ok lah,enough bout that fucking incident think bout it make my blood boil and is getting me on my nerves.. see lah.. my eyes, forehead got wrinkles le..no point angry with this kind of immature guy... angry le make me old faster.. haiyo.. I don't want to be called a lao char bo loh...
talked bout happy stuffs.. yesterday i went to marina bay to celebrate kelvin's 21st brthday.. haha.. wah.. then the guys long papa, wei x, kelvin's friends, david took 10 eggs and threw at kelvin.. aiyoh.... play with eggs...eh.. egg white very good for hair.. egg yolk good for the face leh..
haha can't wait to go out with ling this monday.. tomorrow my grading le... ya... for my wishes in year 2006 are listed here
- wanna be taller than my mum by this year
- this year red packet got more money
- able to go taiwan cos, one of my mum's cousin wedding at taiwan
- able to go study higher nitec and be in the same class with some of my coolster buddies
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Thursday, January 05, 2006
wow....a new year 2006 le... lots of things to say.. yeah, haiz.. yesterday went back to school for tkd training then end up bei ka jiao by a few people...one of the senior asked me who is my boyfriend at first I didn't say one.. then end up she asked nick then she go asked my dear loh.. she smart sia.. then for training can't tie my hair cos, I've ust rebonded my hiar,.. haha..
ok lah, forward to today.. haiz..today also went down to hougang for tkd training.. yeah, at first I was being told training at hougang CC but no, is at hougang RC... gosh! i made my dear wait..sorry dear.. then on the bus we talked on the phone suddenly I du lan bout something then I showed attitude.. I should have tell him nicely.. sorry dear... haiz.. he need time to be alone..ok.. I hope it won't be like nivel say he want to be alone then we end up break up.. I don't want the same thing to happen again.. Oh ya, every month on the 9th is not a nice day for me.. cos, that day nivel broked up with me.. I hope my current dear won't say break to me.. I'm very sorry.. hope you can forgive me... me will not stop loving you just like you do.. i'm sorry.. this time is really my fault..
now, don't know how.. feel very loss and confused.. and also afarid of what gonna happen I don't wanna think of that past.. but.. don't know why I have this bad feeling that my past will ocme back and haunt me again.. part of me say I should let go but another part of me say I still love him... I wonder what is he thinking... I really wanna know.. haiz.. ok lah, let nature take its course bah.. hmm.. people, would you mind help me keep a lookout for a form saying about donating organs when you die.. I 'm loooking for that form.. cos, the donor must be 18 and above... so, when I turned 18 I gonna sign the form.. yeah, if i'm not wrong, there must be 2 witnesses...
hope to see this form around cos, I wanna donate my organs when I die..
dear, just wanna tell you.. i'm sorry ok.. bu yao bu li wo....i really don't mean to vent my frustration de.. Whatever I said and hurt you.. i'm sorry.. ya, always loving you..
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