Tuesday, February 28, 2006
I guess is time I should have a ''press conference'' on my blog. yeap, readers might be curious why all this while I have not write and talk about my boyfriend on my blog. well, the answer is very simple, we broke upp.. I broke up with him when he told me he wanted a one week break at first I thought it was aright for him to have a one week break, however, the next day my conscience was telling me something was amiss.. my firend qing tian, told me that this kind of thing ever kinda happen to him once, my boyfriend reason for a week vacation was he said he wanna test whether our feelings for each other is true anot.. qing tian and xin xin told me that his reason is an excuse..
well, after we broke up, he still calls and sms-ed me.. then one night, he called then he suddenly blurted out that question asking hether do I have a new boyfriend, i was shocked and asked him why he asked that question... whenever he calls me, he seems to be so hurry to hang up on me, i told myself though we are still friends, but there is a limit to friendship.. yeah, but few days later, I didn't kow what has coame into my mind I started telling him that I still love him, so does he still feel the same for me, days later he asked for a reconcilation. I told him I wanted to consider bout his request... in the end, I still gave in to his ocnsent as I realised that everyone deserves a second chance and our love, confidence, feelings for each other is still there.
since we patched up, frankly speaking I MUST SAY that he doesn't seems to acknowledge this r/s and myexistence.. I managed to talked to him about it yeah, I even told him this '' ask me to be your girlfriend is you, now you asked for a reconcilation is also from you again" he had one condition which is if I have any problem, I have to confront him first before asking qing tian( sunny) and he claims that whenever I have problems I will always loook for qing tian. he wants me to think of him first.
I tell myself if this r/s still ocntinues to be like this, I guess this time I'll break off with him and will have nothing to do with him... I hope to see changes
torn
Sunday, February 26, 2006
hmm.. how i spent my friday.. yeah, me went to MOE bulding to collect my N levels certificate.. then went down to Bugis to meet my friend, on 2nd march she will be going back to australia,we went to Billy Bombers and had ou lunch, then we walked around bugis and went to the new national library.. the biggest library... read bout some stuffs like decorating of homes, etcetc.. then I took the train down to city hall to meet xin xin.. yup. went to esplanade.. haiz.. qing tian suppose to joined us but end up, he didn't. only xin xin and me, comb the whole esplanade le, we took the bus to orchard.. heex.. went to eat KFC then talked alot, then went to Heeren..
yeah, this was how I spent my friday.. hmm.. ling, don't worry i'm alright lah, is ok that u never pei me, as long as you have me in yr heart can le.. ya, i'm fine le, got qing tian who is willing to chat with me can le.. hmm.. really wanna thank qing tian...
hmm.. don't know what to say now.. cos my mind ar, normally can crack what to say de.. now like cannot crack..haha.. i think i stop here for the time being first.. friends anything, just tag my board or contact me on my mobile.
torn
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
tian ying gai liang le, ni ying gai shui le, shou yi zhen ye de ta, ying gai zou le
ni ying gai ku le,ta ying gai xing le. xiang yi zhen ye de wo gai si xin le
wo men dou mei you cuo, zhi shi ai shang tong yi ge
zhi guai ai shi du zhi zhan you fei yao ping de ni si wo hou
*hao ai ta, hao xiang ta, zai zhe yang xia qu wo zhi hui gen qian hua
ai dao zui hou wo men hai shi gai bian bu liao ho~
zhu fu ta, yong you ta, shou you de you qing ren zhong cheng juan shu le
ni gei guo de mei hao liu zai mei you ren dao de le de di fang kan ni wei xiao
v2- shou you de mei hao, liu zai mei ren dao de liao shi zhe ba ni, man man yuan wang
v3-liu zai mei ren ddao de liao, shi zhe ba ni, man man wang diao
this song is by 7f and 183 club.. very touching and nice.. if you guys get yo watch the MTV, is really touching and can make you cry.. hee... the titled is hao ai ta, hao xing ta..( love her, think about him)
ok, time to update my blog.. hmm.. past few days lots of stuffs is oging on.. last saturday is we 3rd month anniversary, then very bored, sian day for me... then.. hmm.. worte a story in my own personal blog... write le, also make me wanna cry..haha.. then always find people to chat, that person is that hao meng shuai ge qing tian a.k.a daivd ho.. hehehe yeah, life still have to continue no matter what, still have to move on... whatever we wanna say, we must think properly before we talk.. cos, once you say certain things, you cannnot expect nothing to happen or what... words cannot be taken back.. in chinese there is a pahrase, it goes like this:
puo chu qu de shui, jiang chu qu de hua shi shou bu hui lai de... it means that, if you splashed/ spill water, you can't take it back, then another phrase means word whatever you've spoken out from your mouth, the words can never be taken back.
yeah, thought bout my late grandpa. ( my father side grandpa), I thought of going to his cemetry.. not the one located at choa chu kang, but the one located around joo seng rd, his is some tablet kind bah.. the last time I went there was bout 8 years ago.. hee, really thought of going.. but my dad doesn't know where exactly is that place located at.. so me gonna asked my grandma and some of my other relatives bah.. really hope to go.. but don't know what kind of fkower to buy..
torn
Friday, February 17, 2006
hee.. 14th feb was V day.. however, I can't celebrate with dear.. but I went to school in the morning to apply for hihger nitec, then dear came le, after I left the school, I accompany dear go TP.. Then went to eat.. he so good.. bought me my japanese food.. heex.. then gave me my present.. too Bad.. I didn't got him a present as I didn't know what to give and was busy with other stuffs.. Then tomorrow we 3 months anniversaary le, also cannot celebrate.. haiz.. next time then make up for him bah..
this week, we meet up at least 3 times leh.. cos monday he fetched me home, tuesday we accompany each other here and there.. then wedensday I went back for TKD training, he came down and wat fr me to finish training. He very caring , thoughtful, bought me H20 packet drink and durian cake.. hehe.. Wah paing! training damn jia lat.. cos, my leg cannot squat and sit.. then take stairs very pain , legs feel like jelly bah. then he piggyback me.. xin ku ta le bah.. what to do? bones heavy most guys sure cannot take it sure will complain bodyache de.. see, monday, and wedensday see me home.. ar.. tai hao le..
some more what to say leh? then before he send me home, we went to sat at some bench near my home, sit down and rest for a while. haiz.. legs damn aching till today. then when I want to go off le, he gently hugged me, then gave me a kiss on my cheek.. hehe.. eh, his hand damn warm de..
ok, talk bout today, argh... what a torture my ahem! cause my stomach to feel damn bloody pain.. then have to go toilet a few times.. so pain... argh.. sometimes I think be nu ren very xin ku, caused nu ren are weak, vulnerable, fragile, emotional, they need special treatment de, need to be pampered... Other than that, nu ren will chi kui more than man, then some men no good treat their wives like maid/ servants... then men leh, always wanted to be served and treated like an emperor.. gosh! nevermind I wanna prove to people that women are not weak they are independent, not easily bullied, intelligent, not useless...
hmm.. as i was thinking bout what to do to make up for my dear, I roughly hd an idea what to do le bah.. but haven't really go and confrimed bout it lah... Time flies, hope to see my coolster gang/buddies again... hope my chlaet got more people come.. hehe....
Lastly, I wanna say this.. hmm dear, I know you think that i treat my friends better.. but pls, I've tried my best to treat u and my friends fairly... There is limit de.. ysz/ Must balance cannot always all my time for you then I throw my friends away.. just wanna let you get this picture clearly.. ok, other than that, I appreiciate for what you've done.. I'll not be so ungrateful to those who have help me before.. you asked me whether am I ahppy whenever I[m with you.. the answer is yes,.... yes doesn't means today only, means yesterday, today and the times we are together always... I believe you have the same answer too.. i'm glad you did not sorta pity me then take me as your gf.. cos, I don't want because people pity me then do that..Other than my previous ex, I realise you are much much more caring to that extent.. I'm not comparing.. I just hope our r/s will last.. I'm always here for you whenever you need me de...
torn
Monday, February 13, 2006
last thursday was yun mama's birthday. wow she look beautiful..wow peole say when a girl turns 18 she is a nice, beautiful flower.. indeed she really bloom into a beautiful flower.. haha can't wait to turn 18..hehe.. hopefully can confrim gurantee chop boy chalet then some of you guys can stay over night wor.. haha.. anyway, ya.. ws busy entertaining long papa and the rest Wei x and I kinda do some acting.. he act as some sissy and me acted as some seductive, bitchy woman trying to flirt with him.. then the rest busy watching our show..haha..
aiyoh.. then took the same bus back with wei x... hehe had a great chat.. really missed the times we had together... past few days had my perosnal acitivities then the whole week never meet my dear loh.. then what to say ar... eh.. ya, suppose to joing sg idol audition but then i didn't print out the form so end up I never go loh.. haha..
bored..dont know what to write le.. must think what to write.. ya, today very funny, cos right, my dear sy want fetche me from work. then aorund 5 in the afternoon he say cannot le. cos he need to rush to other polytechninc... he might be quitting his current course in simei ite and go poly liao.. so he went to NYP ply and temasek poly only.. at frist he say fter he go TP , he will rush to SP and Np.. eh, end up never leh.. when he say cannnot fetch me le, i say nvm, i go home by myself.. then after work, he called, then asked me where am I ... I told him I just left my workplace.. then walked and talked then eh.. sudden;y saw someone very familiar leh.. then I hang up the phone then I say him loh. anyhow call.. play this kind of thing. that scene really reminds me odf some tv dramas.. haha.. then he so good, he bouhg t me my ken ken cuttlefish.. haha.. coos, i always eat that infront of him ma.. haha.... tai ai si ta liao... sy cannot fetch me, end up can fetch me, some more buy my ken ken cuttlefish..
so happy leh.. of all my so many ex, no one did that loh, then honestly speaking tomorrow is my very first time celebrate v-day with boyfriend leh.. believe it or not.. yaya, enought bout all these tomorrow me going to register my higher nitec course hope can be in the same class with some of my coolster buddies.. then in the afternoon, I got dental appint met.. me must do x-ray for my teeth cos, I werng braces real soon.. then.. the chalet on 30th april is already confrimed le, hope those friends I've know can make it as I'm celebrating my birthday and the next day is labour day, no school, no owrk ba.. then hope firends can go wild wild wet on 1st may too.. hee
torn
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Back! to update my blog. ya, tuesday was my grandmother's birthday celebration . the celebration held at one of my uncle's place, a club house in his condominium.. lots of poeple came like her friends many many relativ3es some are distant relatives. they came too didn't expect got lots of kids.. running, playing aorund, throwing balloons, blowing balloons etc etc.
Me did a little video.. then my other cousins played black jack.. all my elder cousin i cal her da jie, she wanted to play with money de.. aiyoh.. me never play lah, just watch loh, then me share with my cousin a can of carlsberg.. I drank a few sips only..haha. then the rest he drink himself lah.. hmm.. ya, manged to asked one of my aunt for help in booking the chalet for my birthday celebration. I might be putting a chalet BBQ on 30th april to celebrate my birthday. I'll confirm with you guys again.. Then those wanna stay over also can.. not all hor.. only a few, cos I was thinking 1st may can go wild wild wet mah. If stay over at the chalet, the next day just take some of your stuffs and go wildwild wet and play..haha Hopeffully can book the chalet by now then 30th can come and enjoy all you want.
I will be inviting lots of poele, if the chalet is confrim on.. haha. Talked about today, After work, I went to meet my good friend she is also like a jie jie to me.. she came back from australia, but she will be going back soon. This is her last year studying in australia, end of the year, she will be graduating.. yeah went to TM, Phin's and eat.. at first somebody for the past few days insisted to follow de.. so kpo.. I say ladies thing that kuku don't believe then still hope can follow then say bring ear pluck can le.. luckily I managed to shake that kuku off..haiyo.. Think back bout that incident really stupid loh. me and my jie jie talk alot, bout r/s stuffs,sch stuffs, friends, teachers etc etc..
she suggested I should tell my mu that i currently seeing someone leh.. but not the right time lah, in case my mum say." wah.. so fast! '' I can say after more than 6 months is ok to find a new bf/gf loh.. not days later then find new one ma... I not a bitch or a whatever woman loh... I always say find new bf must have proper timing, just like do hair, eg; touch up roots, tocuh up rebonding.. must more than 6 months than can re-do rebonding or touch up the hair colour ma.. if keep on doing, hair will spoil de ma.. logic wad..not 2-3 months later find new one. that one ar like chagning tyres or repairing air con ... haha.. yeah, I worte a story on my another blog.. THos who have my pesonal blog add, can feel free to read. or if you ppl got aything just tag my board and I'll get back to you ASAP..ya..
SO sorry, if you guys can't find that link to my personal blog.. I removed it due to some reasons. haha... then, after that, I went east coast... alone...so boring.. so i called a few people, called qing tian, wei x and my dear.. wow.. lots of stars leh.. heex.. then I made a wish,,. shh.. i not gonna say is not related to r/s de la.. haha.. anyway, yun mama's birthday is here.. just wanna wish her a happy birthday..
torn
Sunday, February 05, 2006
just came back home. heex..today went to church 2nd service which starts at 1130hrs..
Then saw my hao sister at church, she came back to sg for her holiday. Around march she will be going back to australia liao.. end of this year she's graduating.. wow time flies and she studies in australia for 3 years.. hmm.. yesterday discussed with my mum about having a BBQ during my birthday at first we thought of asking friends/ relatives who live in condominuim to help us book BBQ pit.. but then, condo got time limit.. so our plan change. we decided to book chalet. then some of you guys can ton overnight..haha.
Yesterday, my ''lao ta'' max, called me asked me wanna go watch I not stupid 2 ma?? I say I watch le.. he and ice man went to watch.. then I asked him he watch fearless le ma. he said he watched liao.. sian 1/2. Then I asked him why never call his gang( that bernard, wei cong and some others..) ar.. don't care him lah.. anyway, thanks for inviting.. Hope my friends/cousins can come for my BBQ.. haha.. especially lao ta and gang so long never see them le.. really miss them sia..
hmm.. ok bout today, after church service, went to my mum's cell group members da house bai nian.. then after that, I took the train to city hall and meet xin xin.. wah liew, then that Qing tian called.. he sick, then say we never jio him go out.. haha.. distrub lah. sick le still wanna go out.. ya, we went to wtach Fearless.. show damn nice, but damn violent, sorta exaggerating.. this character huo yuan jia( Jet Li) is a famous so call kungfu fighter. he beat the angmohs( german, french, english) and a japanese.. It was said that, he didn't got the chance to learn wushu/kungfu but he tou xue from his dad. as his dad was a shifu himself.. the rest of the story you guys go and find out yourself...
ya , after movie, went bugis, walk walk, take neoprint.. today that neoprint machine we took, really gave us alot of time to decorate wah liew.. sit till our ass damn pain..lolx. Ya, we decorate until like wanna sleep like that. ya, 14th feb is valentine's day. I got dental appointment in the afternoon.. haiyo.. at this special day.. wonder what will I be doing, will he and me celebrate ma?? or will I go out with friends..haha.. no lah, still long way, when the date is nearer then say.. ya, if I'm not wrong, this tuesday my grandma's birthday.. haha celebration will be held at my uncle's condominium. can't wait man, can't wait to jump into the swimming pool and swim.. then can't wait to video and take lots of pictures..aiyah, everything can't wait lah..
torn
Friday, February 03, 2006
wow.. time flies and a new month is here..hehe.. ok, talk about wednesday.
yeah,went out to watch I not stupid too at TM with my dear..haha.. before that, while queue-ing up, to buy tickets the queue damn long, luckily we manage to get the earliest time slot...haha.. the show damn funny. more of ''action'', more about life of being a teengaer etc etc...
I already banked in my hongbao money le, I also bought my wang zi bian qing wa VCD le...haha yesterday went to deposit my cash at the deposit machine, the queue also damn long.. when my turn came, I notice the prevous person who queue, forgot to take his ATM card..at that time, I was hesitating whether to give to the bank or to chase after him as he wasn't away from the machine that far.. So i went to chase him and gave him back his atm card.he was with his friends then end up I re-queue again..luckily managed to be at the theatres on time..
after watching the show, me went to tampines mrt to look for ling, as we are going to city hall to meet qing tian, xin xin and ice man.. dear, pei me go city hall. after that, he went home liao..wah piang, whole day got flu.. then at night, can't sleep tried to sleep but can't then dear pei me talk through msg loh.. haiyo.. hope he able to wake up early for school leh.. I was thinking of putting lots of candles in my room.. wow! damn romantic leh.. haha.. cos in idol drama zjzd, they shown this part where xiaoying and tian xie was locked in a storeroom.. once the door is close, the whole place is pitch black.. so tian xie, used lots of different kinds of candles to light up the whole store room.. wah.. damn romantic leh... me wanna watch the next movie, titled fearless//. hope to be able to watch it soon..
ok lah, bout today.. wah same thing, damn xin ku, and happy cos, i also get hongbao... toal for today only eh, 18 bucks ok lah better than nothing..hmm.. i knocked off at 6 today, went to bugis to buy my magazine featured J stars like 7f,5566, 183 club, lala, typhoon, k one, tai ji.. i bought 2 different issues.. then I bought january issue got free CD installation of this game thingy. the website is this http://sos.digicell.com.tw/ then also have 2 free magnet..hehe one featured zax wang ren fu and kone/typhoon Darren..haha.. darren getting very shuai dai le.. haha... then I alos bought love miracle, J star CD, inside got free box of pokka cards and a red packet with their photo..haha.. then at night, went to see doctor.. due to my bad bad flu.. haiz.. hope it will be ok soon...ya hor, this month, is valentine's day 14th feb then 4 days later is he and me the special day..haha..
lastly, dear, don't blame yourself for not taking good care of me ok?? not your fault wor.. hmm.Since our that east coast trip I find we are much much closer leh..haha hmm.. dear, must take care of yourself too..ya, always loving you and will not forget what you've done for me de..
torn