Today after my church service, I went for lunch then that stupid James called me...Asking me whether have I reached Tampines? I said I'll be on the way...Argh...I was damn freaking pissed off with him.For the past few days he wanted me to meet him and his friends on sunday as they said they wanna give me a treat and a present as few days ago was my birthday..haiz...When I went there, I ran into Jaren ...but that idoit James was nowhere to be seen then Jaren called him...In the end, I followed Jaren to meet James and his another friend Marcus..
Gosh! I was being tricked into coming out....Their main reason is to asked me to joined them for movie...You guys may say is nothing wrong joining them for a movie..but they shouldn't have tricked me and say that they wanna give me something..Thank goodness! I was able to reject his offer...I demanded an explanation of what was going on.....In the end, he told me that jaren wanted to celebrate my birthday..But he couldn't make it on wednesday so he decided to make it up today..I told the 3 of them I couldn't joined them as I have something on later.But yet, James wanted me to join... but I was persistent and said that I have something on..For the past few days, hetold me to meet him to collect my birthday present...But I told him to pass it to me on tuesday in school..yet he insisted and wanted me to meet him today.so I did....I told my mum what happened....
After I went to TM,NTUC with my mum, i ran into the 3 of them I pretended not to see them...But my mum was able to recognise that idoit James....Gosh! then suddenly my mum and I started to talked about guys I even asked her about that chap I have been referring to all this while..she said that he's better than James.....thats good.I'm glad to hear that from her...
Now I have a note specially for him:
When you get to read this, I just wanna let you know how I feel and what I would wanna tel you all this while.How I wish you're still beside me telling me and be there to comfort me, lending me your shoulder to lean on...I really missed you..I deeply regretted for not treating you well, in the past..BUT..IF we're able to be together again...i promise/swear that I'll treat you well and I won't be so mean..I'll be the nice, sweet girl....I'm willing to whatever I can to saved this r/s.I know you're going through some stressful period....I can understand...I'm in the situation too..I'm willing to wait for you..I'll never give up..you're someone special to me and you mean alot to me.....I don't wish to feel guilty for what I've done...I really hope there's a chance and you're willing to give me the chance to make up for whatever I've done...I'll open up more to you.....Even IF we don't seems to talk much..at least we can do something and find something to talk about....Though we're not able to meet up...we can try our best to find the time to meet up..no matter what...is how we arrange/plan/organise and whether we are willling to make sacrifices for each other..I'm not compromising....I just wanna do waht I suppose to do before is too late since we still have feelings for each other, why don't we think about this carefully...IF you don't have any feelings for me, I guess, I 'll wait for you or even to let you go....I really missed you,the time we have ...Who will be there to help me out when I'm feeling rather troubled??other than my friends,famliy, you're someone that really mean alot to me..you can never be replaced...trust me..I really mean what I've said from the bottom of my heart..I hope you'll come across this note...and tell me how you feel after you read this,.....I'll be waiting for your answer be it good or bad.....I miss you
torn
!I WANT
More Money change my hair colour
Have a height of AT LEAST 165 and above
Keep my hair much longer like last time
GO korea/taiwan/europe/USA
Maybe get new MP3 player .Wang zi bian qing wa Idol drama VCD
Get TKD black belt New shoes
get much darker
have a good future Adidas Windbreaker Get a job
BUy another month supply of coloured contact lense
A hanbok(korean costume)& yukata(kimono)
buy flower power new tops have a wonderful 18th birthday
get into poly
