I'm loss for words.after what you've told me.. today I seems not my usual self with you around. I don't know why,but the feeling just came by.I don't wish to feel that way.I was rather surprised when you told me something that gave me a shock..I really don't know why you don't felt lonely with me around...
I really want to know am I that special that you felt for me...I hate myself for saying stuffs that I don't want to say..I hate myself..how I wish I did not let you know...I rather bottle up then to say it out and hurt someone...I don't wish to hurt anyone..I didn't mean it on purpose..I can feel the pain inside me...Tears are rolling down while I said those things to you earlier on. I couldn't really sleep..I cried myself to sleep not because I felt for you..but because I really appreciate that you felt for me and treat me well...
I'm at loss of what to do....someone encourage me to go for my happiness and asked me to give it a try....but I'm at loss.... I'm confuse.....no one can ever see my tears behind these pair of dry eyes of mine...NO one can understand how I feel.I appreciate whatever is going on with you around...Though I may feel a little awkward for now..but is only temporary....
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!I WANT
More Money change my hair colour
Have a height of AT LEAST 165 and above
Keep my hair much longer like last time
GO korea/taiwan/europe/USA
Maybe get new MP3 player .Wang zi bian qing wa Idol drama VCD
Get TKD black belt New shoes
get much darker
have a good future Adidas Windbreaker Get a job
BUy another month supply of coloured contact lense
A hanbok(korean costume)& yukata(kimono)
buy flower power new tops have a wonderful 18th birthday
get into poly
