Friday, September 23, 2005
hmm..lots of things to say...firstly, is about wednesday.....if you guys get to know about what happened wednesday at my campus library...you'll sure kinda laugh....it happened like this.. we had 3 hours break due to our lessons being cancelled that 's why we end up having 3 hours break,...as usual my group of buddies and sisters went to the library some used the PCs some went there to sleep.I logged in on msn then steven say hi to me...so we chatted then beside me was edie, then the 2 of us were busy shooting, pass nasty remarks..then there's a line that stevena sked me go eat shit say i fierce...then I du lan..I sold...I say something like this.... ''knn, nb,ccb, how dare u ask me to makan tayi(shit in malay)''...bloody hell then he what....stupid pear...the reason why i called him pear iit started when yeng ling said that he's some kind of superglue/something sticky in cantonese..so whenever I forget the word, i'll remember it as pear as the first word sounds like pear...... after that came along Ling, she joined in the businesss of passin nasty remarks.......he keep saying he like ling, won't give up..haiz...buay tahan keep on saying that same sentence.......
ya, recently, i don't know why eddie started to treat me so nice...this remind me of how he treated xin xin in the past.Then that iced man say he want to chase me....NO way....Is impossible.I really don't know what eddie is up to........haiz...how i wish i can know the answer...Sisters, friends....I didn't came up to him..is he auto come and treat me so nice.....How i wish he don't do that...just like wednesday, after school, he followed me home then after tkd, he see me home....He just alighted at the same bus stop as me and I walked all the way home all by myself...Yeah, I told Iced man that I like my kor kor leslie...( ling u knw what is the actual reason right???)...Then yesterday my another friend said that he liked me actually it happend like this while we were busy chatting then it happened like this :
KW: so u now single or double?
Me: Ha....wad BF...Don't have leh,..haha..I long time ago break le..
KW: I see, never tell me cos I thought u available want to ask u de..
Me:but I now single but unavailable leh.....really...why wan to intro boy friend give me ar?? how come must ask me leh???
KW:Not intro boys to you..haha..I intro myself to u..haha..then when u are available tell me, maybe u now exam after exam can?
Me: orh..you want find girl friend ar..so hurry..say early lah....I intro girls give you lah..See how lah....is it you like me..haha
KW : yA LAH, i LIKE u
Me: Oh really, i so good meh..you like me for how long le?? are you kiddingi nobody want de leh.
KW: From the day I know you, find u attractive ma, me not kidding de..but now u need to work hard for your exams
Me:Yaya, I will...cos I now this kind of things I don't wish to bother le..haha..i just hope if possible, I gonna make myself unavailable till I can go to poly..haha
KW: YA,good lor....work hard ar...hehe
Me: But I hope to be with you...
yeah, like that..haiz...I was seriously thinking,,if possible I wish to stay single and UNAVAILABLE till I'm able to go into poly....If I'm able to go in....then see if got people want anot..haha...sorry for being thick skin... then IF can't get into poly probably I'll have the same status single but unavailable..Hope to be unavailable for life..rather be left on the shelf...people might think I'm crazy... but really.i wan tot find the happy me, enjoy life, do well in studies, make my wishes and dreams comme true...guys....can step aside...not important to me already.
you all can say why i'm unavailable....you may think that I'm abnormal probably a lesbian another reason can be eh....lose confidence in guys,this is the 2 main reason people will think why I'm unavailable.....another reason can be.... I'm only available for one particular guy.
Yesterday bumped into that idoit on msn.then the first question was..how u and your boyfriend??? argh..buay tahan....keep thinkin I got boyfriend ...let me say one more time..i'll never never never want to stepped into a r/s for don't know how long so i asked why he want me to have a bf....he say he want people to take care of me. for goodness sake..give me a break... I can take care of myself..don't need a guy to look out for me......then he asked me go and find one bf..wah....what the f***??? think what..ask me go find one must go find one and easy to find is it..I'm not desperate...then he say got one guy for me I don't want....bloody hell he asked me to take him...don't want leh.....Die also don't want ar.. Then today iced man say eddie is available.....pui ar..give me I don't want die die also won't want and won't llike him....so what?? scared cannot find ar..singapore got 2 million guys..so what?? I don't want leh..i admit my expectation high..i chooosy..ya.
so what even he last guy or that idoit last guy on earth die also won't like them
I know cannot be so choosy wait even gu tou mei you de shen ar...haiz...sian diao..don't ever tell me any guys like me, chase me etc etc..i've enough of their lies etc etc..that's why you all see I'm not gentle because of some reason and there is a story behind...please understand.... sorry for being so frustrating...i Just wanna say what I wished to say for quite some time... I don't want to bring whatever I wished to say out for a long time to my grave....
Ok lah.. ok lah I don't angry le...I want to be happy as tonight my another sister carol birthday celebration..must be happy for everyone and for her plus my self..haha....take picture must look good....always get angry, get frustrated,stress, will get old easily see...lah....now my eye the eye bag so big le, that's why i used eye gel and whatever eye product to help my eyes.....haha
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