Wednesday, April 26, 2006
ar.. want to cry le, my applicatin under may intake for higher NITEC in accounting not successful.. ar.. jia lat, don't tell me, I no qian tu.. ar.. want to cry liao... hopefully, can have a place, and continue my studies real soon. that shall be one of my brithday wish too bah.. haha
Hmm.. so many things to do and happen in my life, I next week thursday must go for a minor operation, read my personal blog and you'll know why. haiz.. then don't know is it I under some tao hua yun, or whatever rubbish lah, cos can say that I'm torn between 2 guys now.. haiz..1 of the guy is qing tian's army friend Gabriel and another one is one of Jerry's friend. haiz..
Then yesterday Jerry's friend wanted me to give him a chance then asked me to consider and tell him my answer, he say will wait. but like that worth it ma? he say worht it.. haiz.. then he happy waiting bah, he asked me whether I got any feelings for him ma. I just told him, I never asked myself that question and don't know my own feelings, I told him I wanted a long break for r/s, and not ready for a new r/s then he allow me to take my time, haiz.. don't know lah. then I very blunt in my speech I say " don't waste time, not worth it de all guys the same say wait or what end up is empty promises and bull shit de.. haiz. I rather have friends", then he say he will wait means he will wait.. argh.. don't know lah.
But now my interest is older guys leh.. haha. There are some things I've discovered if I ever choose either one of them, IF, I choose Gabriel, it should be ok,cos, we have alot of things in common, like where we stay, same religon, almost the same family background. BUt one problem, a year older than me, I have 3 ex who is a year older than me, we always like " ba zhi" bu he, some clash lah.
Then for Jerry's friend. haiz. that one can say is loong papa buay song with de, then, afarid he is some playboy, but don't look like one bah.. don't know lah, though he is ok,.
haiz.. whatever lah, I wanted to tell him say I no confidence liao. but don't know where to start and how to start, He one thing good, never force me. well, just hopefully he will give up bah, is not worth it de, I am not the one. outside got plenty of better girls.
IF i ever set a date and give him an answer on that day, I suppose I know what will be the answer to give lah, haha. ling, how? thought bout your answer to give to wei x liao ma? but one thing I at least about 50- 70% sure which is I am feeling numb when it somes to r/s, I won't feel anything much when anyone say like me loh.
About today, yeah, bump into Eddie and Pearl at TM, then at the interchange waiting for the bus I bumped into my sec 4t1 classmate, gang yuan, haha.. today I msg him then today also bump into him.. haha. then we chatted for a while, he very good helped me jio other sec4t1 ppl come to my party. thanks alot man, then say if on that day need help , he can help, he changed alot sia, more gentleman,mature..haha.
time flies another 4 more days to my birthday. can't wait.. haha..see u guys on that day, preapare to sabo me, I got prepare thing let u all sabo, those wanna ton, confirm with me wor.. haha.. must say early ar. in case anything cock up..
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