Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Oh ya, tomorrow june le, then this June got a few events coming up for me, 1st and 8th June no piano class for me, cos the school holiday, followed by 10th June I got my sec 4 class BBQ gathering, oh ya guys I forgot to let you know that I am going for an audition, for some contest, the contest is called New Paper new face organised by new paper,so call sponsore is by female magazine. hmm.. then my mum think I can win $10k. She says, IF i win 10k I pay for her trip to Shanghai, haha then like that I shun bian pay for myself too bah.. ahahaha....I not putting so much hopes lah.. win then win, never win nevermind, the most is i become popular only bah.. ahahaha
Btw, my brain not yet rusty cos, on mondays I've been attending this workshop call toastmasters, this word sounds familiar and interesting right? yeap, is about communication skills etc etc, yesterday was my first presentation with the other toastmaster members, I did my speech gotta write on a piece of paper first then roughly summarize them verbally, I cracked my brain on how to write , what to write.. yeap, later going to work liao. hopefully I won't screw up. I must jia you, best thing is tomorrow hopefully can really go back to school to study.
OH ya, those who tend to go bar/pubs or what, can look for me, location, timing, I can let you guys know, I'll be working on tuesday and friday other details I can msg you guys
torn
Saturday, May 27, 2006
hmm. Heaven is still fair to me bah at least got good guys around not alot lah, but at least 1 or 2 only. but the problem is I'm still confused who I like more leh.yeap, Fishy said the right thing bah, cos, I don't wanna go into another r/s that fast, I need a break, if I don't have a long break, I will break down and go crazy. Then for Eddie he tagged my board and told me what to do lo, if I think his point of view is correct. hmm. maybe Im still afarid of my past bah, then my past still somehow haunts me bah not everyday but once in a long while it'll kinda haunt me by putting those irritating stuffs in my dreams lo. whatever it is lah, IF i gave up on someone like that, then I don't in the end blame heaven that I never get those good guys. Is me who is stupid, choosy lo. Is my loss lo..
Then talking back about how those things grow in my body that I gotta go for an operation, hmm.. I named out those things caused.
i) my diet
ii) my own problems like stress, not sharing out anything
iii) technology, environment
Then when touched on the psychological part, me and my mum had a tiff, she said that I feel with hatred for my parents etc etc, I admit last time I hate, I yuan. but now, I don't whatever it is it is already in the past, I learn to let go, learn to forgive and forget. Yet my mum still claim that whatever thing it is is forever there, example when I hate about last time or what, means I hate it last time but now I don't.
SHe insisted about other things, she is wronged about me yet she don't admit.. argh.. then she say maybe I quarrel with friends or what. but I from don't know when until now, never quarrel with my good friends liao leh.. only small misunderstandings then after a while apologise, then talk about what happen then ok le, like that only. The reason why I don't like to share with her my things is because last time,whenever she not in the good mood, or what, then Iwanna open my mouth and tlak she'll say I tlak back. what is this? that's why I don't like to tlak to her till now.
Facing four walls and a celling at home sucks she say that my sentence facing 4 walls and a celling means I bear grudges, full of hatred. WHat for? hate takes alot of energy
Here is a story being told by my school teacher when I was in secondary school, I think it might be familiar with some of you people.
A teacher told her students to gather potatoes, the teacher told the students to bring the potatoes everywhere they go, The next day, the students gather back at school for lessons, some had 1 to2 potatoes and the other students had at least more than 5 potatoes, indeed the students followed their teacher's instructions by carrying the potatoes everywhere they go, the students did this for quite a few days, slowly, the potatoes, starting to smell bad, rot.
Those who had at least more than 5 potatoes, started to complained even more, saying that the bag of potatoes they carreid are heavy, while the other students who had less than 5 potatoes started to find it a hassle to carry the potatoes eveywhere they go, it seems inconvenient. SO the students gave those feedback to their teacher, the teacher listened carefully and asked them. " do you know why I asked you guys to gather those potatoes and carry them with you everywhere you go?" the students had no idea why, so the teacher told them " this is beacuse the number of potaotes you had means the number of person you hate, hate takes alot of energy, it is like carrying heavy stuffs you need alot of strength to carry heavy stuffs. Slowly, when you carry those potatoes aorund, slowly, itll smelled bad and start to rot, that is how when you hate someone, you are hating to the core and there will be lots of unhappy things coming in like bitterness, hard hearted and many many more."
The students listened carefully , one of the students voiced out and asked the teacher can they stop carrying the potatoes everywhere they go, the teacher told them " you can do it, provided you stop hating someone, by forgivng and forgetting what your enemy has done to you. The students did. Those who had more than 5 potatoes slowly, reduce the number of potaotes they had by throwing it away, it reduce and all the potatoes were gone. This means those students who had hatred for someone, slowly, they forgive and forget.
when the potatoes issued were settled the taeacher asked the students how they feel without the potatoes around, the students answered they feel, more relax, relieve without any trouble with those potatoes they had to bring it around.
Hmm.. am i a good story teller.. haha... k lah, talked about yesterday, I went for interview, actually wanna interviewed a few places de. but then I didn't expect one bar, willing to let me start work immediately which is next week.. haha the workplace very good, asked me which day available then can come down and work.. haha one hour 7 bucks leh.. Don't worry I'm not ppole dancer or what, down there no pole, only got pool table big plasma tv so customers can come in watched football. haha, Just a waitress there. can wear any clothes I like, no uniform, heex.. next time wanna go new place and drink, enjoy life can come my work place, the location is at far east square. The name of the place is Mama Africa.
I went back to my workplace at metro.. I missed the place very much, especially some of those people I got to know there.. heex. I took bus 969 back to tam0pines interchange, while walking to east link mall, I walked past the waiting area for bus 67 I saw some one bei ying very familiar .. Hmm.. I think is Wei x.. HAha. I wanna confirm so I went infront of him, then we chatted.. he just finished work.. i see... hmmm.. he seems much better liao la, but still like very thin leh.. haha..
about Suyu tag board thingy, this reminds me of my tag board being flooded and my gang went to tagged Iisabell's tag board plus xin xin whose tag board was flooded before.. haiz.. idoit, how dare they bully suyu.. hmm.. mouth so smelly, don't tlak so much cock lah, don't know how to zip your mouth, I help you ok? help you freshen your breath, if not one thing, I cut off your tongue see whether you dare to talked so much rubbish anot.. hmm.. bloody hell.. ling followed what I say liao. last time I say ppl puberty abnormal etc etc.. ya loh, quite true, if is a girl she watched out, careful she like me, got lumps in her breast, then the lumps is cancerous then the whole breast gotta be remove, not only that, scarly her womb also got thing then whole womb remove. see whether got ppl want her anot.. freak
hmm. but mine is harmless will not turn to cancerous de.. haha
Then if it is a guy, hope he become eunuch ba.. haha.. ok lah, I don't wanna so bad curse ppl lah, I must go freshen my breath liao.. I like very fierece hor? my mum called me Lady cui
from da chang jin this is because lady cui is fierce and wicked however I'm fierce but not wicked.. haha. but at the later part, lady cui died in a tragic death. ya, wicked people will die in a tragic death.. but not really, good people die in tragic death is beacuse is happen bad luck ma.torn
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Today Gabriel msg me, then he suddenly asked me about my higher NITEC thingy.. hmm.. this Gabriel still the same, sometimes still address me, in a sweet sweet manner, sometimes he'll call me sweetie or babe, haha then one shocking thing he told me was to be mentally prepared as he'll be asking me some question, haha I hit the nail on the head, indeed he asked me to be his gf, that is the question he asked me, I got shocked, was kinda speechless for a while, then he asked me is it he pop that question out too early, I said ya, not only I said ya, I told him I need a long break for r/s, followed by he's now serving his NS, the last sentence I told him was when he finish his NS le, then come and pop that question out ba.
Hopefully, I say this to him, he won't feel what bah. I don't wish to make things worse and get people hurt however telling tons of white lies won't help a lie, is still a lie I suppose, I did told a white lie in the first place le bah, maybe I did, maybe I did not.. argh.. so confused, all I remembered was he stepped into my life at a little later stage, enjoyed the times chatting and poking fun at each other then slowly I realised I liked him bah,to think back, now, I'm in a terrible mess, I liked 2 guys at the same time, how am I suppose to tell him, that I've fallen for someone else too. I know people might think he is a good guy and yet I didn't choose him, yet I gave him up.. haiz..
I just don't understand why I made a mess in life, I hate screwing up in whatever I do.
I'm glad you stepped into my life, we got lots of things in common and can chat alot of stuffs under the sun.
You and I made a shocking discovery, probably is heaven giving you the chance to let your feelings for me in the past came back.
For my past few r/s and those other guys trying to woo me, I asked myself why was heaven so unfair , throwing those rotten guys to me and yet let those sluts outside grab those good guys, where have all the good guys gone to?
I asked myself this question many many times , however you appeared and I told myself
heaven isn't that cruel at least there are still good guys around you are one of those good guys.
I ever told myself if the time comes,I'll rather choose you, this is because we have so many things in common, in the same boat in certain things, and since we have so many things in common,
we can understand each other better, but now, I think I can't bring myself to do it. I rather we be friends, just like how me and one of my soulmate is, though we are not an item, but we are still best friends for life.
I'm sorry for not being frank with you, not being able to tell you that I've liked someone else besides you.Just hope that, you'll find your another half, no matter what, I'm always here for you, whenever you need me, thanks for being so good to me,
I'm touched and happy. really thanks alot for being with me, I never regret knowing you
torn
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Many people left, only left, samuel, Joel, xin xin, Cheryl, Royston and me. Then justin a.k.a Chua hee hee very lame and bo liao, say he very boring want me to continue telling him my whatever story. The 6 of us left at around 6 something.. yeap. that's early and not so crowded. haha went to habour front had our dinner, Cheryl, royston and me went to suntec city courts as Cheryl was looking for the 9.90 speaker, for her mp3 however the promotion starts on saturday which is yesterday. sian diao, still very bored so we went to the esplanade roof terrace, sat down, tell stories and chit chat. Sast downt here till about 9 plus. We walked to boat quay area and took the train , Cheryl and I got down at Eunos to take any bus that pass and goes to tampines safra. Gosh! i GOT A BIT OF SUNBURN.. HEEX. hopefully xin xin is ok, cos her stomach like not feeling well, joel says its appendix. hmm.. that night xin xin msged me say she is sorry for not spending time with me and cheryl then always with Joel if not , she'll keep to herself.. hmm.. xinx in, is ok, cheryl and me won't blame or say you de.. ya? at least you still got talk to us.
Ok, back to yesterday. went to singapore indoor stadium as there is some event and 5566 is there, can say a so call 5566 concert.. woo hoo, taufik came and perform and sang a few songs.. haha. 5566 sang the most songs. wahaha. I downt here screaming like nobody's business, Kym Ng and Gurmit Singh was the host for this event, then when they were talking bout 5566. I was the only one screaming within my seat and one lady infront of me, kinda stared at me, jis lat, the whole event finished le, I went to looked for my cousin, she borugh her friend along for this event and I borught my friend along too.. My dad came to tong pang us, we went to Bedok and ate our dinner or supper whatever you wanna call it, for me is my late dinner. wahahaha. screamed until no voice liao, there is one part Xie zhi say his pants is kinda lose, the fans were asking him to strip, I was there busy singing the song tuo diao. haha. lame right? I seems to be wild, hyperactive, mad, noisy when it comes to pop star concert, that's ME...I very careful cos, wait some people don't like, t will throw their shoes at me or whatever shit lah.. haha..so happy can't stop thinking about yesterday
torn
Thursday, May 18, 2006
talked and listen to each other point of veiw and whatever things lo.. haha then one of my friend, Ben called me, his voice abit sounds like my TKD senior Justin chua hee hee.. lolx. he asked me what am I doing I told him I having high tea with my friend.. haiz.. marina square still seems quiet, so we went to Bugis for a walk, took neoprint. while decorating that time, the pointer xin xin was using seems to be lacking and can't work, she down there feeing buay tahan and very qi bah.. haiyo.. haha.. hopefully the day will be bright and sunny, weeeeeeeeee... so excited. can't wait glad that pei wen decided to gather us to meet at habourfront at a earlier time then can play longer at sentosa. Don't know what to wirte liao, I signing off, gotta use my eye mask liao, let my eyes relax and sleep much early today.. good night.. sweet dreams to everyone
torn
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Too happy le. then I went back to school Customer and visitor centre asked about my application stuffs, thank god again, I still have the chance to get into Higher NITEC but I have to wait till 31st may then I'll know the result,then went to tour around the school, I really miss my school. haiz. then bumped into yun mama, pearl, my junior Nick and that sway person my ex.. haiz. whatever lah! I just recovered I don't wanna grow anything again inside my body, then bumped into some other people like candy my "twin" haha. Then I called wei X and msg Ling, I told them I was at school. I went to wait for Ling at the bus stop, haha there she is, with Suyu. hmm.. ling and suyu reached school le, have to go for their lesson le, I saw Wei X so I went up to him, he siad he was about to call me de.. haha he is having his break, he so good, went to haven cafe or campus haven( I confused with the name of the cafe liao) the one which is near the library, he treat me drank orange juice and there is a coupon which you can get a free ice cream, he also got one for me too.. so kind of him. thanks alot wei X, I agree with you that we very long never sit down, chat alot. But this kind of sit down and chat feeling is very good, and it is always still inside me.. haha.
Finish with everything le, he send me back to the bus stop, I took a train to Orchard as i need to help my mum get her stuffs at TANGS plaza. I got for her,then I went to far east and Taka for a short walk and decided to go back home as I wokep up quite early yesterday morning. I slept in the train slept almost like a log.
In the evening I went to catch a movie with a friend, we went to watch " when a stranger calls". yeap. watched finish liao, I decided to go to esplanade to admire the night scenery, anyway, I also so long never went there le.My mum nagged at me to come home. argh.. so fed up. I don't like to go home, facing 4 walls and a celling. this sucks and I'm legally 18 liao so if I stay up late at night, and the police are patrolling around the area, the police can't do anything wad, then bought a can of beer, drink loh, my xing qing is mostly happy but there is one not happy part which is that jian ren, sway person msg me, asked me I went back to school is it, then say me never say hi to him, then the last part of his msg he say this " dao sia". argh.. bloody kuku, you shut up lah! ping she mo zhe mo shuo wo, ni zhe ge, jian huo, suai ren, see you I wanna puke liao.
I down there say about this thing lo, then suddenly, i got headache, then keep on cough like that, then my friend down there, say rest a while, then he lend me his shoulder, I never throw myself to him de, is he just pulled me to lean on his shoulder de leh..I down there lean on his shoulder liao, he down there talked alot of things, say what he like me etc etc, argh.. then he asked me to listen carefully, I down there nod my head lah. I feel like wanna scream out something but didn't do that, I wanna say, where have all those good guys gone to? and whatever shit.. I now very daring treat my home like a hotel.. haha.. There is one part, I was abit bad tempered I told him to go away and called him those nasty words I called my ex, then he asked me about him, so I down there asked him not to mention to me about my ex.
He very good, say can give me time to give my answer about going steady with him. I like this kind of ppl, willing to give time and don't like to force people do certain things. I reached home at 0030hrs.. wow! my mum haven't sleep yet she wa watching jewel in the palace, I slept around 2 as I was watching tian duo de jia yi, by cyndi wang and 183 club, nice show. heex.
torn
Sunday, May 14, 2006
Last thursday went out with Ling, Li Jie and Fude.. heex. thanks alot ppl and at the same time to celebrate my birthday. yeah, we took neoprint.. haha.. while walking back to tampines interchange, Li jie suddenly asked me about my ex, I down there abit not happy liao. he asked what happen etc etc, then I slowly told him about what happen etc etc, then he told me his story about he and his ex lo.
haiz... ok, not only that,while on bus 291 with Li jie and Ling, we chatted, then I told Li Jie about my ex calling him pervert or what, then I asked my ex, why he called Li Jie a pervert,then he say there is a secret between him and Li Jie, however, Li Jie exposed the secret he said that my ex, kept the NYP sex video stuffs in his thumb drive, then he send to Li Jie, send already, he say Li jie is a pervert, how can he do this? he's too much.Even Ling also not happy when he said Li jie is a pervert. He asked Li jie not to tell me that he had thos e NYP sex video. Now I know liao, not important, cos I NO LONGER his stead le. Is just that, I did open my eyes big and see his true colours bah, don't see him like so naive, childish, innocent, decent etc etc. can say that there is a big question mark on this person lo. cos, we don't know what he is thinking and can't possibly read his mind de. Unless you are someone who can read his mind or xin li yi shen.
At night, suppose to have my dinner at changi airport sakae sushi, however, I'm still at my grandmother's place, around 10 then left my grandmother's place with my mum and aunt, in the end we went to wisma to eat, well, went to eat korean cuisine instead, well that's my favourite too. my aunt ate korean claypot rice, the dish being garnished was very nice just like those you can see in jewel in the palace... after eating we all chatted alot of things, then I told my mum about today what Li jie told me and many many stuffs
ok, friday was vesak day, I went out with Li Ting to orchard, we bumped into our sec school classmate Joeyee, he really changed alot sia. then I bumped into my cousin Gabriel at Far East, he was with 2 of his friends.. haha. He very cute, suddenly appeared in front of me, wah. he cool man, wear until so nice.. heex. Li Ting bought me a present. then we took neoprints twice,went to had our meal, we ate chicken rice.. hee... yeap! so happy we can go out together again. Hopefully, I start school soon..bored.. I shall stop here and wish all the mothers happy mother's day
torn
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Yeap! now I thought my birthday is 30th april but no lah, I never lose my memory, I still remember my actual date of birth is today... hurray! tonight going to eat sakae sushi and one more good news, my MC for one week is over le, yesterday was the last day of my 1 week MC.
torn
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Then when my turn came, the doctor asked me to have my wound the dressing be changed and clean again. he prescirbed me anti-biotic and cream to apply on my wound. Haiz. that day the doctor should presrcibed me anti- biotic, stupid leh. no anti-biotic thats why caused my wound to get swollen and have a slight fever.. aiyo.. wanna nao chu ren ming ar? luckily I faster went back to the hospital in case anything happen again. see my wound, like a bit gross ..
Yesterday, I went back to my workplace for a while to look for my mum's friend, heex. she's so hapy to see me.. then she offered me some ping guo shen yu tang( snakehead soup blend with apple) there is a smell of apple and the soup is taste of some fish thingy.. wow. very nice, no mixture of sweet and salty taste, the cook very pro can cooked this kind of herbal soup with fruits inside, they keep it cold but when u drink it, is hot.wow. I guess I must learn how to cook this. This kind of dishes reminds me of da chang jin( jewel in the palace) those palace maids cooked a simple, healthy meal, but it seems to be expensive food from some high class restaurant..thats cool.
Around 3 something, Ling and Su yu came to my place andvisit me. thanks girls.. I'm much better le, I stil hvae the mood to celebrate my birthday again. my actual birth date is 11th may. yeah, so maybe I might be going out and have fun with my friends.. heex. This friday is vesak day, hopefully, Li Ting is free to come out. Wonder how is she and John.. heex.
so happy I got 5566 concert tickets.. haha my dad gave to me de.. 2 years ago, I won 5566 concert tickets. this year I got the chance to go again.. so happy and excited. Don't know what to write liao. everytime entry to long, people will sleep de lah.. bye bye. anything just msg or contact me bah...
torn
Saturday, May 06, 2006
hmm.. past few days got alot of stuffs happening, is regarding about me and Gabriel(qing tian's army friend), we 2 made a "shocking discovery". orh.. yuan lai, we long time ago know each other liao. I t happen like this, when I was in pri school, I was in a student care centre I left the studnet care centre when I was in sec 1, then Gabriel was in that student care centre too. At that time, I had no idea who is he, cos there are other guys name Gabriel too.He recalled all this only recently and in his dream, I remembered back then, I was a low profile person, then he was still new in that student care centre, he told me, he asked people about me, and gather some information about me, don't worry lah, he is not spying on me or being too much, he said he at that time got a crush on me, then always admire me frome a distant lo, wow! this thing really so dramatic sia.. he said it seems that the feelings he had for me, is already back. haiz.
Then he told me his secret, he said he ever followed me home once, to see I stayed near where, then he regretted one thing, he regretted for not approaching me and get to know me better beofre he left the student care centre, Last time I thought some gabriel guy studied in st. patrick's, or.. I mixed up liao, the guy studied is st. patrick's is his brother.. haiz.. I really mixed up with him and his brother liao. wah really is the fact leh, we can say is fated bah, cos got alot of things in common de leh.
Now, is about another guy that jerry's friend haiz.. I don't know what went wrong with me, I suddenly msg him and say I ever liked him, and about going steady, I'm not ready etc etc. then he msg me said he know what I wrote liao, then he allowed to give me time, What the hell am I doing? I very confused now, I even asked myself whether I got like 2 guys at the same time anot.. if like that means I'm hua xin. then Jerry's friend is yun mama's ex stead, I dont ren xin to go steady with him and hurt yun mama, I dont want that to happen, then he said yun mama will be happy, then assured me alot of things.. haiz.. Well, he and I now not officially steady ma, so no big deal. I think I zou yi bu kan yi bu then see when I should give him an answer lo, I was thinking of one thing, I thought of setting the same date by giving my answer to both guys, then like that, won't be unfair to the both of them ar. argh.. stupid idea really no idea what to do now leh.. so confuse and so hua xin de wo.
then past few days during the chalet period my mum told me stuffs that make me feel disturbed, haiz.. I don't wish to say it here, when I have time I shall tel Ling and the others about it. then one thing she say, she still think ice man still like me, so long liao, impossible de lah. haiz. Well, he and Gabriel know about my operation stuffs liao, is I told them de, anyway, operation only, nothing to hide de ar. This Gabriel ar, sound like very xin tong. haha, then he even willing to donate blood if I ever need blood transfusion. I not that weak lah, but thanks for your concern..
Not only gabriel lah,. plus my sisters too.. heex, I'm ok le, after I fully recover must go out together wor, cos 11th may is my actual birthday, then thought of going out with you girls.. haha
torn
Thursday, May 04, 2006
Yeap, then those doctors and nurses keep on asking me question, I was thinking am I at the wrong place ma? lolx, well they asked cto check whether I'm aware of my name, IC no., what kind of operation I'm going through anot loh, then one doctor came to gave me my anathesia jab, I was put into deep sleep, all I could remeber was, he gave me a jab, attach my hand with a tube and a glucose bag, then when I woke up, I ralised that my operation was already over, the doctor very lame asked me got dream of anything ma? I don't think I remember I got dream or what, I just felt that, I seems to be sleeping for 5 minutes then suddenly I woke up and was being told that the surgery was over, haiz. then I open my eyes, and saw my self attach to some machine, those machine used in ICU .. lolx, I saw the reading meter of every single breath I took I ever thought if the reading show one straight line, means I'm dead, choi I'm not dead, I tried to sit up, but " collapsed" back onto the bed
my anathesia jab was a general one, yeah, I felt like sleeping, head felt heavy, felt like throwing out too, but I didn't puke, just felt that my head is real heavy, I stayed in the hospital till 4 cos, I need to rest some more, GOsh! I the loo, then I pressed the bell, then one missy came, she asked me whether wanna pee into a container anot, I said I don't want, so she removed my glucose thingy and I adjust my clothes properly then I went to the loo, gosh, when I got up, the glucose tube which is attached to my hand, was filled with blood, even the bed sheet was stained with blood.
thank god, my lumps were harmless , the were kinda too big so it has to be removed and send for a test to confirmed that it is 100% harmless. thank god, I'm laright is just that, I'm feeling painful and uncomfortable right now, don't worry friends I'm alright le, very thankful to god that, I am not suffering and I don't have cancerous cells in my body.
I have to get plenty of rest in order to have a seedy recovery, I didn't expect being a patient now is so good is like living a life of a princess. haha then I cannot carry heavy things, then I can " bully " those people who are not sick, cos they are strong ma, lolx. no lah, I not that bad lah.. haha
torn
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
I am busy blowing my whistle when it is cut cake time and sabo time.. haha. yeah, that's my tool.
Really wanna thank gang yuan cos, he helped me pulled some of our sec 4t1 classmates, thanks alot.. then got a lot of pictures with my tkd friends and coolster gang, haha, didn[t expect ice man can come out from his army camp and join in the fun.. hmm.. my lao da, max and his other friends came, ke xi, one of the shuai ge, bernard never come, haha. Hope you guys had a great time too.
That night, almost everyone left already, gang yuan and my other secondary school friends went for a walk, then, left long papa, yun mama, qing tian, rebecca, ice man. Rebecca said that I seems to be quiet , yeah, then the rest of them asked me to say out if got anything in my mind, well, I didn't know what to do, then I went to the other side of the chalet, then long papa followed me, then long papa talked to me for a while, then I couldn't control my emotions, then I cried, he asked me what happen then I told him what am I feeling right now, I told him that very ke xi wei x cannot come, cos whenever anyone birthdya, he is always around, now my birthday he is not around , I can understand but just feel something missing bah, though at midnight, he called and sang happy birthday song, I was touched and happy, then on that sunday night, he called yun mama then yun mama passed me the phone then wei x talked to me for a while.
not only long papa comforted me, ice man was there, then he asked me what happen he even asked me is it my ex bully me, or what,I said no. then thought about what I said to long papa earlier on, I cried then ice mna willing to lend me his shoulder, but I just put my head down and cry..
Yesterday was labour day, I got free tickets to wild wild wet, cheryl, xin xin, joel and me went to wild wild wet, since they have never been before I encouraged and told them to give themselves a chance to have fun at wild wild wet, glad they had fun. THen many of my friends who stayed over, left, then at night, I was alone, well, I just treat my chalet as a hostel in some university.lolx. my mum, called then she took her stuffs and stayed over
Today I checked out quite early, then I send my photos for develpment, in the afternoon, I went out with xin xin, joel and cheryl. at first I thought xin xin and me will be going out, then she said joel dismiss school early, so he'l be joining us, I at first was like oh no, I like disturb ppl dating leh, then wanna asked cheryl accompnay me, but then , she in school, then nevermind, cheryl called me, asked me where am I, then I told her I meeting xin xin, then JOel coming along ma, so asked her to join us, so I won't feel bu zhi zai ba.. yeah,so the four of us went to bugis then to Kovan.
hmm.. really had a great birthday party, I hoped in future my birthday party will be a happy one.
torn