hoho. Monday went to watched a movie with ling, suyu, royston and cheryl, we went to watch over the hedge. Yeap. indeed a nice and interesting movie with all those cute animals, hmm.. hurry up 31st may so I can know whether I confirm can get into higher NITEC anot.. heex.
Today Gabriel msg me, then he suddenly asked me about my higher NITEC thingy.. hmm.. this Gabriel still the same, sometimes still address me, in a sweet sweet manner, sometimes he'll call me sweetie or babe, haha then one shocking thing he told me was to be mentally prepared as he'll be asking me some question, haha I hit the nail on the head, indeed he asked me to be his gf, that is the question he asked me, I got shocked, was kinda speechless for a while, then he asked me is it he pop that question out too early, I said ya, not only I said ya, I told him I need a long break for r/s, followed by he's now serving his NS, the last sentence I told him was when he finish his NS le, then come and pop that question out ba.
Hopefully, I say this to him, he won't feel what bah. I don't wish to make things worse and get people hurt however telling tons of white lies won't help a lie, is still a lie I suppose, I did told a white lie in the first place le bah, maybe I did, maybe I did not.. argh.. so confused, all I remembered was he stepped into my life at a little later stage, enjoyed the times chatting and poking fun at each other then slowly I realised I liked him bah,to think back, now, I'm in a terrible mess, I liked 2 guys at the same time, how am I suppose to tell him, that I've fallen for someone else too. I know people might think he is a good guy and yet I didn't choose him, yet I gave him up.. haiz..
I just don't understand why I made a mess in life, I hate screwing up in whatever I do.
I'm glad you stepped into my life, we got lots of things in common and can chat alot of stuffsunder the sun.
You and I made a shocking discovery, probably is heaven giving you the chance to let yourfeelings for me in the past came back.
For my past few r/s and those other guys trying to woo me, I asked myself why was heaven so unfair , throwing those rotten guys to me and yet let those sluts outside grab those good guys,where have all the good guys gone to?
I asked myself this question many many times , however you appeared and I told myself heaven isn't that cruel at least there are still good guys around you are one of those good guys.
I ever told myself if the time comes,I'll rather choose you, this is because we have so many things in common, in the same boat in certain things, and since we have so many things in common,
we can understand each other better, but now, I think I can't bring myself to do it. I rather we be friends, just like how me and one of my soulmate is, though we are not an item, but we are still best friends for life.
I'm sorry for not being frank with you, not being able to tell you that I've liked someone else besides you.Just hope that, you'll find your another half, no matter what, I'm always here for you, whenever you need me, thanks for being so good to me,
I'm touched and happy. really thanks alot for being with me, I never regret knowing you
torn
!I WANT
More Money change my hair colour
Have a height of AT LEAST 165 and above
Keep my hair much longer like last time
GO korea/taiwan/europe/USA
Maybe get new MP3 player .Wang zi bian qing wa Idol drama VCD
Get TKD black belt New shoes
get much darker
have a good future Adidas Windbreaker Get a job
BUy another month supply of coloured contact lense
A hanbok(korean costume)& yukata(kimono)
buy flower power new tops have a wonderful 18th birthday
get into poly
